So here I am, finally, back in New Zealand and I must say the food looks normal (to me). Despite my major bingeing and travel eating over the last two weeks my weight has remained relatively stable. So I am ready to start focusing on eating intuitively and setting myself new goals. Only one problem has arisen…my new flatmate.
I have moved in with my best friend and his flatmate. She is really good in every way except she hates fat people. So Im not quite sure how I dodged the bullet so perhaps its only fat woman? She doesnt really eat anything and she never has fat with food. For example, a drop of butter was left in some sauce and so she threw it out because fat was in it. So she literally has no fat whatsoever. She also doesn’t eat carbs so she mainly eats just lentils etc. Since I am staying here rent free (at the moment) I don’t really feel its my place to say anything. She just makes lots of comments while watching TV. So it brought back all those old desires to diet. I even looked it up on the web but I just knew that I was setting myself up for failure so it did not go any further than that.
Other than that she is a really nice person and easy to get along with so I don’t want to paint her as an ogre. In addition, my best friend, who I am living with as well, is a doctor and so also believes that being fat is very unhealthy. He will also make lots of negative comments. Even though we have had arguments before about it and I always win, and he admits it, he still has his mind set that people shouldn’t be fat and it is unhealthy. But like I said in every other way they are great and he is my best friend and has really helped me out when I needed it - like letting me stay rent free at his house while I look for a job. So Im not sure how it will work out as this fat acceptance and eating intuitively is a major path I want to go down and when Im constantly being reminded that fat people suck it is kind of difficult.
Reminds me of my situation with Grumpy, my flatmate-on-a-diet. Only difference is that Grumpy isn’t openly fat-phobic, he’s just fat and self-loathing. Anypants. I think that if I was you, I’d just try to stick to what works for me, i.e. intuitive eating as opposed to a strict, near-macrobiotic diet. I’d keep reminding myself that the only thing restriction ever leads to, is a binge. Now I know you’re a guest in their house, but if you feel like they’re being unfair, hateful or hurtful, I think you have a right to speak up. Good luck!
Thanks Bee, well I ate really well yesterday. By well I mean when I wanted and what I wanted and without any bingeing. So I dont really care what they think. It is only when I start to binge and feel Im out of control in my eating I start to think diet diet diet. She is a very open minded person in every other respect and I feel that if I sat her down and explained she would fully understand. But I think I will just save that conversation for later. But thanks for the support.